If you are reading this and you are not me, then FUCK YOU. This is not for you. This is for me. To tell myself what I thought, for when I won’t have that luxury anymore.

Come to think of it only Watson from Sherlock made blogging look so cool. It is actually very difficult.

Anyway, to the point. I am kinda in the middle of one of those long-wanking session. Being extremely horny, I can’t help but think of what the future holds. These are my fears and frustrations.

Will I ever kiss a girl before M?

Is M the only way that I could touch, kiss, fuck a girl?

What if I didn’t like the her?

Even if I did, will I be satisfied? Just one for the entire life?

Well, one this is for sure. I will regret this time. I could have done more. But I am trying man. It is fucking difficult.

Anyway, just look at her man. Is she still cool? Still relevant. Another frustration, will I ever get anything close to this? How random and unforgiving life/universe is. sigh. FUCK!